Sad...

I'm sad right now. I think about my Papaw on a daily basis but have thought about him a lot more lately because my friend, Jodi, and my blogger friend, Julie, lost their Grandaddy recently. It has been 6 months since my Papaw left this earth and I still miss him. I always will. He died of lung cancer. He died 9 months after they found the cancer. Those 9 months went by fast. I am thankful that I knew him for 31 years though. I know that I was lucky to have that much time with him. I am also thankful that he was able to know Bryson. He always said that Bryson is "a good lookin' kid". I can still hear him say that now.

Cancer is awful. It has got to be one of the worst ways to go. I often asked "Why do you have to hurt as you leave this earth? Why does he have to be in pain?". Like my friends, Jodi and Julie, we knew when he was close to the end. The family gathered at his house every night as he was getting weaker and weaker...and eventually would not wake up. I wanted to ask him if he was scared to die, but didn't because I didn't want to talk about anything but "happy" things with him. But at his funeral, one of his friends said that Papaw told him that he wasn't scared to go at all. That made me really happy to hear. I know Papaw is in heaven and I know that he is not hurting anymore and that's all we wanted for him....for the pain to go away.

I have visited his grave only once...it was harder than I thought it would be. I just talked to him as if he were in front of me. I told him that we are all taking good care of his best friend (his wife) and that I am happy that he is in heaven not hurting anymore and that I will see him again someday.

Papaw always had a smile on his face and even in his last hours, we would all think he was asleep then he'd crack a joke and make us all laugh. We all miss him and are looking forward to seeing him again one day.


I am just rambling on and on so I'll wrap this up :)

I posted a video of the song "I Can Only Imagine". I love this song.